Janice Mirikitani

POETRY: Suicide Note, by Janice Mirikitani

January 14, 2015

. . . An Asian American college student was reported to have jumped to her death from her dormitory window.  Her body was found two days later under a deep cover of snow.  Her suicide note contained an apology to her parents for having received less than a perfect four point grade average. . . How many notes written. . . ink smeared like birdprints in snow. not good enoughnot pretty enoughnot smart enough dear mother and father. I apologize for disappointing you. I’ve worked very hard, not good enough harder, perhaps to please you. If only I were a son, shoulders broad as the sunset threading through pine, I would see the light in my mother’s eyes, or the golden pride reflected in my father’s dream of my wide, male [...]