GOD 101: The Last Lesson

July 15, 2016

I was a young woman when the serious lessons began.  After my time of Rumspringa – or in my case, running away from God. Not long after I was hunted down and recaptured. Well, it wasn’t that dramatic.  But it adds a nice flourish to the story, don’t you think? It didn’t take me long to realize that the lessons weren’t like lessons in school: lessons I could apply myself to and learn easily and with a little time and effort. We’ll leave geometry out of the above equation. But, in spite of needing infinite time, patience, and the willingness to actually apply myself to these lessons, they just kept coming. The Lesson of Silence…. The Meaning of Patience…. The Lesson of Six…. The [...]

LESSON: Source And Orbit

August 19, 2014

It was a lesson that seemed like just a bunch of words: Between two people there is a relationship.  One is the orbit.  The other is the source.  The orbit gathers and directs energy to the source.  The source recreates the energy into that which will sustain them both. All I could think of at the time was, He’ll bring home the bacon, and I’ll fry it up the pan. And that God, somehow, at least for this lesson, was stuck in the ’50s. Which kind of delighted me. God with a distinct personality: middle-class, suburban, post-World War II. Which is to say, I didn’t think much of the lesson. At all. There are a number of Between Two People lessons. The lesson of peerage: Between two people, all things are the [...]

GOD 101: On The Matter Of Blame

February 4, 2014

The blows to our self-esteem that concern us are the constant, insidious attacks upon our self-image from the blame that we experience every day.  Even though we don’t usually realize it consciously, our self-esteem is under a relentless bombardment of blame: blame from others; blame even from ourselves.  These internal accusations simply devastate our self-esteem, because they make us feel ashamed and guilty. (James E. Sullivan, The Good Listener) It’s the shrill cry of the atheist: Why believe in someone who just sits on his throne in Heaven and judges us? It’s the even shriller cry of our souls when we look down and see the blood of others on our hands: How can I go before God — or those around him — when I [...]

GOD 101: Love Without Pity

January 28, 2014

Recently, I figured out a way to organize the “categories” section of my blog.  As I was happily sorting through the various entries and putting them into subcategories – Raphael goes under Angels – I noticed something that I had never thought about. There were concepts that belong entirely to God.  Creation.  Death.  Final judgment.  And there were concepts that belong entire to man.  Sadness.  Motherhood.  Enemies. And, then, there they were: concepts that belong to both God and man.  Love being the biggest one I noticed. And so I felt confirmed in my “discovery” that love is not really an emotion: how could it be if there are different applications of it?  How could it be if at least one aspect of [...]

GOD 101: Incremental Forgiveness

December 2, 2013

I have written before about the lesson of re-creation.  I’ve added a hyphen here, because the lesson is not about having fun on a beach, but of creating yourself anew. It’s about healing.  Deep healing.  Healing of wounds that have slammed into you and taken up real space in your mind and soul. It’s symbol is the number 8.  The top circle of the number represents going through the experience again with your mind.  The bottom circle of the number represents going through the experience again with your body. But it’s not like, OK, I’ll just go over this painful experience with my mind and emotions (top circle).  No, it’s a continuing process of being slammed, in little bits this time, with elements [...]

GOD 101: The Lesson Of The Rose

August 1, 2013

This is kind of a sentimental lesson for me.  It was my first, official, serious, put-into-words-so-that-you-will-understand-it lesson. My childhood visions had been more in the form of a conversation.  Albeit, a very one-sided conversation (with me not doing much of the talking).  But I did have a lot of questions.  And I did like to bend the concepts taught around a lot.  A lot. But after my few-years journey away from God (I’m on my own, now, so don’t bother me, Bubba), and ultimately finding myself smash right up against the wall that is God, a young woman now, able to get around the world on her own now.  But at every turn: God. So I surrendered.  I don’t know if I will go so far as to say [...]

GOD 101: Sign Stories And Women In The Christian Testament, and the lesson of source and orbit

December 18, 2012

(The following text is taken from Mary & Martha: Women in the World of Jesus, by Satoko Yamaguchi) Given the context of the Greco-Roman world, it is interesting to look at sign stories involving women in the Christian Testament.  There seem to be many sign stories in which women must have been involved but are invisible.  For example, women, who are generally invisible in most biblical texts, were undoubtedly included among the “crowd(s)” (see, for example, Mark 6:34; Matthew 14:14; Luke 9:11; John 6:2). Thirteen sign stories contain specific mention of individual women.  Two are the unexpected conceptions by Elizabeth, the mother of John the Baptizer (Luke 1:5-25), and by Mary, the mother of Jesus (Matthew 1:18-25; [...]

SCRIPTURE: The Role Of The Guardian In The Book Of Daniel

October 12, 2012

I have been presented with the lesson of The Guardian since I was a child.  I won’t say study because, one, there are no words to this lesson.  I cannot sit down and write a description of the words God has given me on this lesson followed by my understanding of it. Two, there’s nowhere to go, so to speak, with this lesson.  It’s not a lesson that I have had to spend time with. It’s just a lesson that gets applied. Oh, and it is, for some reason, for me, associated with the number 6. Whatever that means. But over the weeks that I worked on the book of Daniel, wanting to know what was behind a book of the Bible almost entirely dedicated to visions and miracles, having listened to the book every day, having buried [...]

SCRIPTURE: Job—Stripping A Warrior Of Faith

February 13, 2012

I have spent most of my adult life with the lesson of stripping tightly nestled under the arm of my studious mystical self, toting it around with me, to be pulled out and clucked over when some circumstance jostled it back into my consciousness. This is to say, it’s been with me a long, long time. To study the lesson of stripping all one has to do is read the book of Job.  It seemed simple enough when I was younger, but as I aged, as I suffer stripping again and again, I ached for the depth that this lesson must bring. It is easy enough to watch this lesson of stripping be acted out and taught by Jesus.  He was, after all, born homeless.  He died a homeless man.  And he tried to pound this concept into the heads of those around [...]

GOD 101: Gratitude—Creating the Circle of Thanks

January 30, 2012

Gratitude is the secret to life.  The greatest thing is to give thanks for everything.  He who has learned this has penetrated the whole mystery of life  giving thanks for everything. —  Albert Schweitzer Gratitude is the looking for the face of God in everything around us. As a child growing up, and into my early teens, as I sat underneath the large maple in the field, or at the edge of the pond wherein the egret stood, or propped up in my bed, when God was there, as he seemed to be most of the time, I had just one focus to my questions. God tried to focus my wandering and wondering mind onto lots of different things.  But when I was free to ask, I asked only one thing. I was born in Damariscotta, Maine, a town with a sister [...]

FORGIVENESS: Opening The Wound

January 25, 2012

If the unity of Christians in one body makes the church a sign of God in the world, and if men tend unfortunately to conflict and division by reason of their weakness, selfishness, and sin, then the will to reconciliation and pardon is necessary if the church is to make God visible in the world. Nor can this pardon, this communion in forgiveness, remain interior and invisible.  It must be clearly manifest.  So the mystery of the church demands that Christians love one another in a visible and concrete way. Christ will not be visible to the world in his church except in proportion as Christians seek peace and unity with one another and with all men.  But since conflict is inevitable, unity cannot be maintained except in great difficulty, [...]

HEALING: The Great Circle Of Life, Includes the Lesson of Recreation

January 2, 2012

When I meditate on healing, and what helps us to stay alive in the face of all that we are faced with, I keep seeing circles.  I don’t think this is for just any reason.  I have a lesson that deals with circles and with healing, it’s called the lesson of recreation.  (Not recreation, as in, sitting on the beach, but re-creation: to create anew.) This lesson is tied to the number eight, which, as you know, is made up of two circles, one on top of the other.  This lesson teaches how one heals through a trauma.  The top circle represents the thought/emotional process; the bottom circle represents the physical process. According to this lesson, when we are traumatized, our minds and body stop in time.  They clutch and cling [...]

GOD 101: The Lesson Of Silence

December 23, 2011

It would take me more than a lifetime or two to recount all the lessons that have come to me in my visions.  I’m exaggerating, of course, but some days it doesn’t feel like it.  Lessons of God take up a mighty percent of my visions. This is the lesson of silence: In your words, you will find your willingness to serve God.  In your silence, you will find your willingness to be served by God. For me, this could be the first lesson in our understanding of God.  It could also be the last lesson in our understanding of God, as far as I am concerned. As with any study or application of a study of God, the three fundamental laws of God, respect, courtesy, and gratitude, must be the ground on which we base our thoughts, feelings, [...]