NATURE: The Courage Of Turtles by Edward Hoagland

The Courage Of Turtles by Edward Hoagland

From The Courage of Turtles

Turtles are a kind of bird with the governor turned low.  With the same attitude of removal, they cock a glance at what is going on, as if they need only to fly away.  Until recently, they were also a case of virtue rewarded, at least in the town where I grew up, because, being humble creatures, there were plenty of them.  Even when we still had a few bobcats in the woods the local snapping turtles, growing up to forty pounds, were the largest carnivores.  You would see them through the amber water, as big as greeny wash basins at the bottom of the pond, until they faded into the inscrutable mud as if they hadn’t existed at all.

When I was ten I went to Dr. Green’s Pond, a two-acre pond across the road.  When I was twelve I walked a mile or so to Taggart’s Pond, which was lusher, had big water snakes and a waterfall; and shortly after that I was bicycling way up to the adventuresome vastness of Mud Pond, a lake-sized body of water in the reservoir system of a Connecticut city, possessed of cat-backed little islands and empty shacks and a forest of pines and hardwoods along the shore.  Otters, foxes, and mink left their prints on the bank; there were pike and perch.  As I got older, the estates and forgotten back lots in town were parceled out and sold for nice prices, yet, though the woods had shrunk, it seemed that fewer people walked in the woods.  The new residents didn’t know how to find them.  Eventually, exploring, they did find them, and it required some ingenuity and doubling around on my part to go for eight miles without meeting someone.  I was grown by now, I lived in New York, and that’s what I wanted to do on the occasional weekends when I came out.

Since Mud Pond contained drinking water I had felt confident nothing untoward would happen there.  For a long while the developers stayed away, until the drought of the mid-1960s.  This event, squeezing the edges in, convinced the local water company that the pond really wasn’t a necessity as a catch basin, however; so they bulldozed a hole in the earthen dam, bulldozed the banks to fill in the bottom, and landscaped the flow of water that remained to wind like a English brook and provide a domestic view for the houses which were planned.  Most of the painted turtles of Mud Pond, who had been inaccessible as they sunned on their rocks, wound up in boxes in boys’ closets within a matter of days.  Their footsteps in the dry leaves gave them a way as they wandered forlornly.  The snappers and the little musk turtles, neither of whom leave the water except once a year to lay their eggs, dug into the drying mud for another siege of hot weather, which they were accustomed to doing whenever the pond got low.  But this time it was low for good; the mud baked over them and slowly entombed them.  As for the ducks, I couldn’t stroll in the woods and not feel guilty, because they were crouched beside every stagnant pothole, or were slinking between the bushes with their heads tucked into their shoulders so that I wouldn’t see them.  If they decided I had, they beat their way up through the screen of trees, striking their wings dangerously, and wheeled about with that headlong, magnificent velocity to locate another poor puddle.

I used to catch possums and black snakes as well as turtles, and I kept dogs and goats.  Some summers I worked in a menagerie with the big personalities of the animal kingdom, like elephants and rhinoceroses.  I was twenty before these enthusiasms began to wane, and it was then that I picked turtles as the particular animal I wanted to keep in touch with.  I was allergic to fur, for one thing, and turtles need minimal care and not much in the way of quarters.  They’re personable beasts.  They see the same colors we do and they seem to see just as well, as one discovers in trying to sneak up on them.  In the laboratory they unravel the twists of a maze with the hot-blooded rapidity of a mammal.  Though they can’t run as fast as a rat, they improve on their errors just as quickly, pausing at each crossroads to look left and right.  And they rock rhythmically in p lace, as we often do, although they are hatched from eggs, not the womb.  (A common explanation psychologists give for our pleasure in rocking quietly is that is recapitulates our mother’s heartbeat in utero.)

Snakes, by contrast, are dryly silent and priapic.  They are smooth movers, legalistic, unblinking, and they afford the humor which the humorless do.  But they make challenging captives; sometimes they don’t eat for months on the point of order – if the light isn’t right, for instance.  Alligators are sticklers too.  They’re like war-horses, or German shepherds, and with their bar-shaped, vertical pupils adding emphasis, they have the idée fixe of eating – eating, even when they choose to refuse all food and stubbornly die.  They delight in tossing a salamander up towards the sky and grabbing him in their long mouths as he comes down.  They’re so eager that they get the jitters, and they’re too much of a proposition for a casual aquarium like mine.  Frogs are depressingly defenseless: that moist, extensive back, with the bones almost sticking through.  Hold a frog and you’re holding its skeleton.  Frogs’ tasty legs are the staff of life to many animals – herons, raccoons, ribbon snakes – though they themselves are hard to feed.  It’s not an enviable role to be the staff of life, and after frogs you descend down the evolutionary ladder a big step to fish.

Turtles cough, burp, whistle, grunt, and hiss, and produce social judgments.  They put their heads together amicably enough, but then one drives the other back with the suddenness of two dogs who have been conversing in tones too low for an onlooker to hear.  They pee in fear when they’re first caught, but exercise both pluck and optimism in trying to escape, walking for hundreds of yards within the confines of their pen, carrying the weight of that cumbersome box on legs which are cruelly positioned for walking.  They don’t feel that the contest is unfair; they keep plugging, rolling like sailorly souls – a bobbing, infirm gait; a brave , sea-legged momentum – stopping occasionally to study the lay of the land.  For me, anyway, they manage to contain the rest of the animal world.  They can stretch out their necks like a giraffe, or loom underwater like an apocryphal hippo.  They browse on lettuce thrown on the water like a cow moose which is partly submerged.  They have a penguin’s alertness, combined with a build like a brontosaurus when they rise up on tiptoe.  Then they hunch and ponderously lunge like a grizzly going forward.

Baby turtles in a turtle bowl are a puzzle in geometrics.  They’re as decorative as pansy petals, but they are also self-directed building blocks, propping themselves on one another in different arrangements, before upending the tower.  The timid individuals turn fearless, or vice versa.  If one gets a bit arrogant he will push the others off the rock and afterwards climb down into the water and cling to the back of one of those he has bullied, tickling him with his hind feet until he bucks like a bronco.  On the other hand, when this same milder-mannered fellow isn’t exerting himself, he will stare right into the face of the sun for hours.  What could be more lionlike?  And he’s at home in or out of the water and does lots of metaphysical tilting.  He sinks and rises, with an infinity of levels to choose from; or, elongating himself, he climbs out on the land again to perambulate, sits boxed in his box, and finally slides back in the water, submerging into dreams.

I have five of these babies in a kidney-shaped bowl.  The hatchling, who is a painted turtle, is not as large as the top joint of my thumb.  He eats chicken gladly.  Other foods he will attempt to eat but not with sufficient perseverance to succeed because he’s so little.  The yellow-bellied terrapin is probably a yearling, and he eats salad voraciously, but no meat, fish, or fowl.  The Cumberland terrapin won’t touch salad or chicken but eats fish and all of the meats except for bacon.  The little snapper with a black crenellated shell, feasts on any kind of meat, but rejects greens and fish.  The fifth of the turtles is African.  I acquired him only recently and don’t know him well.  A mottled brown, he unnerves the greener turtles, dragging their food off to his lairs.  He doesn’t seem to want to be green – he bites the algae off his shell, hanging meanwhile at daring, steep, head-first angles.

The snapper was a Ferdinand until I provided him with a deeper water.  Now he snaps at my pencil with his downturned and fearsome mouth, his swollen face like a napalm victim’s.  The Cumberland has an elliptical red mark on the side of his green-and-yellow head.  He is benign by nature and ought to be as elegant as his scientific name (Pseudemys scripta elegans), except he has contracted a disease of the air bladder which has permanently inflated it; he floats high in the water at an undignified slant and can’t go under.  There may have been internal bleeding, too, because his carapace is stained along its ridge.  Unfortunately, like flowers, baby turtles often die.  Their mouths fill up with a white fungus and their lungs with pneumonia.  Their organs clog up from the rust in the water, or diet troubles, and, like a dying man’s, their eyes and heads become too prominent.  Toward the end, the edge of the shell becomes flabby as felt and folds around them like a shroud.

While they live they’re like puppies.  Although they’re vivacious, they would be a bore to be with all the time, so I also have an adult wood turtle about six inches long.  Her top shell is the equal of any seashell for sculpturing, even a Cellini shell; it’s like an old, dusty, richly engraved medallion dug out of a hillside.  Her legs are salmon-orange bordered with black and protected by canted, heroic scales.  Her plastron – the bottom shell – is splotched like a margay cat’s coat, with black ocelli on a yellow background.  It is convex to make room for the female organs inside, whereas a male’s would be concave to help him fit tightly on top of her.  Altogether, she exhibits every camouflage color on her limbs and shells.  She has a turtleneck neck, a tail like an elephant’s, wise old pachydermous hind legs, and the face of a turkey – except that when I carry her she gazes at the passing ground with a hawk’s eyes and mouth.  Her feet fit to the fingers of my hand, one to each one, and she rides looking down.  She can walk on the floor in perfect silence, but usually she lets her plastron knock portentously, like a footstep, so that she resembles some grand, concise, slow-moving id.  But if an earthworm is presented, she jerks swiftly ahead, poises above it, and strikes like a mongoose, consuming it with wild vigor.  Yet she will climb on my lap to eat bread or boiled eggs.

If put into a creek, she swims like a cutter, nosing forward to intercept a strange turtle and smell him.  She drifts with the current to go downstream, maneuvering behind a rock when she wants to take stock, or sinking to the nether levels, while bubbles float up.  Getting out, choosing her path, she will proceed a distance and dig into a pile of humus, thrusting herself to the coolest layer at the bottom.  The hole closes over her until it’s as small as a mouse’s hole.  She’s not as aquatic as a musk turtle, not quite as terrestrial as the box turtles in the same woods, but because of her versatility she’s marvelous, she’s everywhere.  And though she breathes the way we breathe, with scarcely perceptible movements of her chest, sometimes instead she pumps her throat ruminatively, like a pipe smoker sucking and puffing.  She waits and blinks, pumping her throat, turning her head, then sets off like a loping tiger in slow motion, hurdling the jungly lumber, the pea vine and twigs.  She estimates angles so well that when she rides over the rocks, sliding down a drop-off with her rugged front legs extended, she has the grace of a rodeo mare.

But she’s well off to be with me rather than at Mud Pond.  The other turtles have fled – those that aren’t baked into the bottom.  Creeping up the brooks to sad, constricted marshes, burdened as they are with that box on their backs, they’re walking into a setup where all their enemies move thirty times faster than they.  It’s like the nightmare most of us have whimpered through, where we are weighted down disastrously while trying to flee; fleeing our home ground, we try to run.

I’ve seen turtles in still worse straits.  On Broadway, in New York, there is a penny arcade which used to sell baby terrapins that were scrawled with bon mots in enamel paint, such as KISS ME BABY.  The manager turned out to be a wholesaler as well, and once I asked him whether he had any larger turtles to sell.  He took me upstairs to a loft room devoted to the turtle business.  There were desks for the paperwork and a series of racks that held shallow tin bins atop one another, each with several hundred babies crawling around in it.  He was a smudgy-complexioned, bespectacled, serious fellow and he did have a few adult terrapins, but I was going to school and wasn’t actually planning to buy; I’d only wanted to see them.  They were aquatic turtles, but here they went without water, presumably for weeks, lurching about in those dry bins like handicapped citizens, living on gumption.  An easel where the artist worked stood in the middle of the floor.  She had a palette and a clip attachment for fastening the babies in place.  She wore a smock and a beret, and was homely, short, and eccentric-looking, with funny black hair, like some of the ladies who show their paintings in Washington Square in May.  She had a cold, she was smoking, and her hand wasn’t very steady, although she worked quickly enough.  The smile that she produced for me would have looked giddy if she had been happier, or drunk.  Of course the turtles’ doom was sealed when she painted them, because their bodies inside would continue to grow but their shells would not.  Gradually, invisibly, they would be crushed.  Around us their bellies – two thousand belly shells – rubbed on the bins with a mournful, momentous hiss.

Somehow there were so many of them I didn’t rescue one.  Years later, however, I was walking on First Avenue when I noticed a basket of living turtles in front of a fish store.  They were as dry as a heap of old bones in the sun; nevertheless, they were creeping over one another gimpily, doing their best to escape.  I looked and was touched to discover that they appeared to be wood turtles, my favorites, so I bought one.  In my apartment I looked closer and realized that in fact this was a diamondback terrapin, which was bad news.  Diamondbacks are tidewater turtles from brackish estuaries, and I had no seawater to keep him in.  He spent his days thumping interminably against the baseboards, pushing for an opening through the wall.  He drank thirstily but would not eat and had one of the hearty, accepting qualities of wood turtles.  He was morose, paler in color, sleeker and more Oriental in the carved ridges and rings that formed his shell.  Though I felt sorry for him, finally I found his unrelenting presence exasperating.  I carried him, struggling in a paper bag, across town to the Morton Street Pier on the Hudson River.  It was August but gray and windy.  He was very surprised when I tossed him in; for the first time in our association, I think, he was afraid.  He looked afraid as he bobbed about on top of the water, looking up at me from ten feet below.  Though we were both accustomed to his resistance and rigidity, seeing him still pitiful, I recognized that I must have done the wrong thing.  At least the river was salty, but it was also bottomless; the waves were too rough for him, and the tide was coming in, bumping him against the pilings underneath the pier.  Too late, I realized that he wouldn’t be able to swim to a peaceful inlet in New Jersey, even if he could figure out which way to swim.  But since, short of diving in after him, there was nothing I could do, I walked away.

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