From The Joy of Full Surrender
The soul who is not committed to the will of God alone will find neither its satisfaction nor its sanctification in the various methods – not even in the most excellent devotional exercises. If that which God himself chooses for you does not satisfy you, from whom do you expect to receive what you desire? If you turn from the food prepared for you by God’s own will, what food could satisfy a taste so depraved? A soul can be nourished, strengthened, purified, enriched, and made holy only by the fullness of the present moment. What more would you have? Since you can find all that is good here, why search for it anywhere else? Do you know better than God? Since he ordains it this way, why do you want it to be different? Can his wisdom and goodness be deceived? When you find that something is in accord with his divine wisdom and goodness, should you not conclude that it must be the best that could happen? Do you think you will find peace in struggling with the Almighty? Is it not, rather, this resistance, this struggle, too often continued without admitting it even to ourselves, that is the cause of all our inward agitations?
It is only just, therefore, that the soul that is not satisfied with the divine fullness of each present moment should be punished by being unable to find happiness in anything else. If books, the example of the saints, and spiritual conversations take away our soul’s peace – if they fill our mind without satisfying it – it is a sign that we have strayed from the path of simple surrender to God’s will, and that we are seeking only to please ourselves. The very fullness they offer prevents God from finding an entrance, and we must get rid of these things because they are obstacles to the work of grace. But if God’s will ordains that we make use of them, we may receive them just as we do everything else – that is to say, as the means ordained by God, which we accept simply to use as they are, and when their moment has passed, leave them for the duties of the next moment. In fact, there is nothing really good that does not come to us from the order of God, and nothing, however good in itself, can be more effective for making us holy or more capable of giving peace to our souls.