LENT: A Lifetime Job, by Dorothy Day

A Lifetime Job Dorothy Day

From Selected Writings

“Hell is not to love anymore,” writes George Bernanos in The Diary of a Country Priest.  I felt when I read this that the blackness of hell must indeed have descended on Our Lord in His Agony.

The one thing that makes our work easier most certainly is the love we bear for each other and for the people for whom we work.  The work becomes difficult only when there is quarreling and dissension and when one’s own heart is filled with a spirit of criticism.

In the past, when I have spoken on the necessity of mutual charity, of self-criticism rather than criticism of others, the accusation has been made that I talk to the men as though they were angels, that I do not see their faults.  Which is certainly not true.

The difficulty for me is not in not seeing the other person’s faults, but in seeing and developing his virtues.  A community of lay people is entirely different from a religious community like the Benedictines.  We must imitate them by thinking in terms of work and prayer.  But we must always remember that those who come to us are not here voluntarily, many of them, but because of economic circumstances.  They have taken refuge with us.  There is the choice of being on the streets, taking city care such as it is, or staying with us.  Even many of the young “leaders” who give up home and position to come to help in the work are the rebel type and often undisciplined.  Their great virtues often mean correspondingly great faults.

Yet those who are interested in the movement fail to see why it does not run as smoothly as a religious movement.  They expect our houses and farms to be governed as a religious community is ruled, and in general they take the attitude that I am the one in authority who should rule with an iron hand, the others accepting this willingly.  Truly the position of authority is the difficult one.

One of the difficulties of the work is to find those who are willing to assume authority.  Leaders are hard to find.  The very best in our groups, members of unions for instance, are steadfast, humble, filled with the love of God and their fellows, and their very virtues make it hard for them to assume leadership.  Often, then, they leave it to the articulate ones who are often most articulate about the wrongdoings of others.  They leave the foremost positions to those who like to talk rather than to do, to those who are aggressive and pugnacious and who do the movement harm rather than good.  If they are not saying the wrong thing, enunciating the wrong ideas – being politicians, in other words – then they are saying but not doing, and even doing contrary to what they are saying.

It is human to dislike being found fault with.  If you point out faults, rather than point out the better way of doing things, then the sting is there, and resentments and inactivity are the results.  “What’s the use of anything, it’s all wrong.”  Such childishness!  But human beings are like that, and we must recognize their faults and try in every possible way to bring out their virtues.

On a visit to a group, there are always a half-dozen who are filled with complaints.  If you try to turn their criticisms so as to change their attitude of mind, you are “refusing to listen” to them.  You don’t give them a chance to show you how wrong everything is.  You don’t know what is going on.  It is in vain that you assure them you do know what is going on, just how faulty different ones have been.  No, that is not enough, if you treat all with equal patience.  Then you are not paying any attention to the complaints.  Positive work to overcome obstacles such as people’s temperaments is not enough for the fault-finders.  They want recriminations and reprimands.  “You are going to let him get away with that?” is the cry, when you try with courtesy and sympathy and respect to draw people together and induce cooperation.

It is very trying to receive so many complaints and not to be able to do anything about them.  Those who do not complain and who try to work along the positive method are accused of being yes-men, and those who tell on each other and who always have some tale of woe are informers.  So in either case, there is trouble.

Oh yes, my dear comrades, and fellow workers, I see only too clearly how bad things are with us all, how bad you all are, and how bad a leader I am.  I see it only too often and only too clearly.  It is because I see it so clearly that I must lift up my head and keep in sight the aims we must always hold before us, I must see the large and generous picture of the new social order wherein justice dwelleth.  I must hold always in mind the new Earth where God’s Will will be done as it is in Heaven.  I must hold it in mind for my own courage and for yours.

The new social order as it could be and would be if all men loved God and loved their brothers because they are all sons of God!  A land of peace and tranquility and joy in work and activity.  It is Heaven indeed that we are contemplating.  Do you expect that we are going to be able to accomplish it here?  We can accomplish much, of that I am certain.  We can do much to change the face of the Earth, in that I have hope and faith.  But these pains and sufferings are the price we have to pay.  Can we change men in a night or a day?  Can we give them as much as three months or even a year?  A child is forming in the mother’s womb for nine long months, and it seems so long.  But to make a man in the time of our present disorder with all the world convulsed with hatred and strife and selfishness, that is a lifetime’s work and then too often it is not accomplished.

Even the best of human love is filled with self-seeking.  To work to increase our love for God and for our fellow man (and the two must go hand-in-hand), this is a lifetime job.  We are never going to be finished.

Love and ever more love is the only solution to every problem that comes up.  If we love each other enough, we will bear with each other’s faults and burdens.  If we love enough, we are going to light that fire in the hearts of others.  And it is love that will burn out the sins and hatreds that sadden us.  It is love that will make us want to do great things for each other.  No sacrifice and no suffering will then seem too much.

Yes, I see only too clearly how bad people are.  I wish I did not see it so.  It is my own sins that give me such clarity.  If I did not bear the scars of so many sins to dim my sight and dull my capacity for love and joy, then I would see Christ more clearly in you all.

I cannot worry much about your sins and miseries when I have so many of my own.  I can only love you all, poor fellow travelers, fellow sufferers.  I do not want to add one least straw to the burden you already carry.  My prayer from day to day is that God will so enlarge my heart that I will see you all, and live with you all, in His love.

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